‘There once was a man who prayed every single night to his god. Every single night without fail he would say “please lord, help me to win the lottery”. Finally, exasperated, his God replied, “how am I to help you win if you have never once entered”.’
The Moral of The Story
This is one of my favourite moral teaching stories. Sometimes I have to remind myself of its meaning: If you never enter the race you will never win. Even if you do enter the race, it may take a thousand tries before you win, but still, winning is possible. One of the biggest assets a person can have is confidence, to try and to keep on trying. I reminded myself of this recently before creating this blog; I asked myself what my dream job would be and honestly, one of my answers was full time blogging. Being self-employed has always been a dream of mine, to run my own schedule and to write about things that I love, better yet to be paid to do it. The thing is, I wasn’t doing it. For the average person, no matter what you want to do in your career or even in your personal life, no one is going to walk up to you in the street and offer it to you on a plate. If I didn’t at least start a blog and put myself out there within the grasps of possible failure, judgement and embarrassment, I was never going to succeed. There is still a very high chance that I won’t. I’m aware that there are millions with the same dream as mine. If I didn’t enter the race I was never, ever going to win. I have always been so scared of failure, to a point where on occasion it has stopped me from even trying. I’ve realised the importance of ignoring negative thoughts. To do things for yourself without worrying about what others will think or how stupid you could look. I know that no matter what I write and no matter how strangers judge it, there are people who will support me. I’d damn sure rather enjoy the process and give it my best shot than lay on my death bed wondering how my life could have turned out. No regrets for me thank you.
Recently I’ve actively focused more on myself. I’ve made goals and lists of things that I’d like to do, both professionally and personally. My life has become more structured and I have things to look forward to. Ticking off my to-do list makes my goals seem more like real life plans. I love the process of scribbling in a notebook, researching and adding goals to my dairy. This year seems to have flown by, but I’ve started this blog as a hobby, project, and something that I have full creative control over. I also have plans to complete my university course. There are so many places in the world that I want to visit and I’m furiously saving to buy my first house.
Sometimes I have to fuel myself with motivation to run my life rather than letting it run me. I imagine if JK Rowling had wanted to write that book but didn’t believe in herself enough to. Imagine if even after writing it she wasn’t confident enough in her work to push forwards after the initial publishers turned her away. JK Rowling now has more money than the Queen. She’s positively affected the lives of millions of children and their families. There are even Harry Potter worlds inspired by her stories and imagination. I know that this is an extreme example. This level of success won’t happen to everyone that simply tries, but it certainly won’t happen to anyone that doesn’t. Trying is not lame, and its okay to try and to fail, because its better than never trying at all.
I know all of this may be easier said than done. Some goals require hard work and financial commitment and have all kinds of obstacles in the way. I’m going to be cliche though; life’s too short. If you want a job but think you’re under-qualified apply anyway. Whats the worst that can happen? A lot of the time, we impose limits on ourselves by restricting the effort we put in. I know that in reality not everything is possible. If it were I would have achieved much more. What I’m saying, is visualize what you want through bucket lists or yearly goals. Begin saving money just for your goals. You can prioritize them and those will seem more attainable. Once you’ve ticked one off you can start working through them. Before you know it you’ll be achieving more than you ever thought you could.
I’m proud of my work ethic. Although I have a long way to go to achieve all my goals, I’m working through them. I’ve been on some amazing holidays, had some lovely experiences and own a few things that I really lusted over. In my eyes that makes me lucky. Whether I win or lose, I’m happy to be the girl that tried.