‘There once was a man who prayed every night to his god. He would say “please lord, help me to win the lottery”. Finally, exasperated, his God replied, “how am I to help you win if you never enter”.’
THE MORAL OF THE STORY
This is one of the only moral teaching stories that has stuck with me. If you never enter the race, winning isn’t an option.
One of the most important traits is confidence, having enough of it to believe that you deserve to win. I remind myself of this often, most recently when I hit publish on Soph Hearts. I’ve always viewed blogging as a bit of a pipe dream, with self-employment being the ultimate goal. The freedom to run my own schedule, to be creative and to write. Eventually, I realised that not trying was a failure in itself.
The average person doesn’t live in a fairytale world in which wishes and wants are simply handed to them. Taking steps towards your goals will never guarantee that those steps lead you to the right destination. Despite the setbacks, the possible failure, judgement and embarrassment, though, I don’t think there’s anything worse than letting irrational fears police your life.
Failure is something which has always frightened me. The very thought of it is enough to paralyse drive and motivation in the best of us. There comes a time though, when you have to really consider whether the judgement of others is a strong enough excuse to give up. I’d definitely rather enjoy the process and give something my best shot than have regrets that I only have myself to blame for.
Recently I’ve actively focused more on myself, making goals and lists of things that I’d like to do, both professionally and personally. My life has become more structured and I have things to look forward to. Ticking off to-do lists makes goals seem more like real life plans. I love the process of scribbling in a notebook, researching and filling my dairy.
This year seems to have flown by, but I’ve started this blog as a hobby, project, and something that I have full creative control over. I also have plans to complete my university course. There are so many places in the world that I want to visit and I’m furiously saving to buy my first house.
Sometimes I have to fuel myself with motivation to run my life instead of letting it run me. I imagine if JK Rowling had wanted to write that book but didn’t quite believe in herself enough to. Imagine if even after completion, she wasn’t confident enough in herself and her work to push forwards after initial rejections. She now has more money than the Queen (seriously, I Googled it). She’s positively affected the lives of millions of children and their families. There are even Harry Potter worlds which wouldn’t exist without her imagination. I know that this is an extreme example and that her level of success won’t happen to everyone that simply tries, but it certainly won’t happen to anyone that doesn’t. Trying is a good thing and it’s okay to try and to fail, because it’s better than not trying at all.
YOU HAVE A CHOICE
I know all of this may be easier said than done. Some goals require hard work and financial commitment and are restricted by all kinds of obstacles. I’m going to be cliche though; life is too short. If you want a job but think you’re under-qualified apply anyway. Whats the worst that can happen?
A lot of the time, we impose limits on ourselves. I know that in reality not everything is possible, if it were I would have achieved much more. What I’m saying, is visualize what you want through bucket-lists or yearly goals. Begin saving money just for your goals. You can prioritize them and they’ll become more and more attainable. Before you know it you’ll be achieving more than you ever thought you could.
I’m proud of my work ethic. Although I have a long way to go to achieve all of my goals, I’m working on it. In my eyes that makes me lucky. Whether I win or lose, I’m happy to be the girl that tried.